Awesome Parents

I really don't know what I did in my previous life to deserve such awesome and supportive parents. 

 I feel extremely lucky that not only my parents, but Jason's as well, are the greatest.  We have  eight parent figures in our lives that seriously are amazing! Each one is individually unique, and they each have had a special impact on us.  So from now on, when I get asked "Jen, why are you so awesome?" I'm going to say "it's my parents fault". 

But seriously, someday when jason and I have kids, they will be so lucky to have these eight grandparents who will love them so much! Our kids will be the luckiest, just like us! 

P.S. A bit sappy, I know. I am just feeling grateful! 

Feeling happy and sad

I've known I am different for exactly half of my life now, but for most of that time I didn't feel that different. My life was pretty much the same as everyone else I grew up around. I played sports, had loving supportive parents, traveled, went to college, went to bars, enjoyed camping in the summer...you get the point. My whole life I have been surrounded my great friends who like to do the same things as me. And now, all of that seems like it's changing right before my eyes...

It's a weird feeling, being so happy and sad at the same time, it is difficult to explain. I think it's just that I no longer feel like I live a "normal" life. I am 32, married WITHOUT kids. I am the weird one now.  It's easy to deal with when a majority of your friends are childless, but now I have become one of the only ones without kids and am slowly realizing how different I really am and it can be difficult at times.

Deep down, I have always known this would happen. It's a natural part of life. It's strange for me because when I find out people are pregnant my initial reaction is very conflicted. Of course I am extremely happy, but I am also selfishly sad for me. It's a constant reminder that I am different.  Selfishly, when I hear the words " I'm pregnant" I think of all the things that could possibly change with our friendship. And although I know that it's a part of life, and change is inevitable, I know it's going to be hard. I cherish the memories of traveling, camping, bar hopping, and living a child free life with my friends. And although we may never do those things together again, I know we will create new memories and different experiences that I will treasure forever. 

Rokitansky

I am not much of a reader...in fact, I have read a total of 5 books my whole life. I don't necessarily have anything against books, but they sort of put me to sleep. 

I recently heard about a book called Rokitansky ( it's the "R" in MRKH).  I had to read it.  MRKH is not very well known, and the fact that someone wrote a book about it definitely intrigued me.  I knew when I bought it that it was a fiction book, which I was a bit skeptical about because IF I am going to read I like true stories.  But I bought it anyway...

For me, the book started out a little slow. I probably would have given up on it after the first 5 chapters, but I convinced myself to finish, and I am SO glad I did! Once I got about 1/4 way through the book, it was hard to put down. I could relate to several parts of the book, and the end of it had me in tears. Side note: I am not much of a cryer.  This book touched on so many of my feelings and made me think of things I hadn't thought of before. I don't want to give too much away because you should read it!! 

I have since talked my husband into reading it, which is he currently doing, and another friend of mine just finished it.  She loved it also, and does not have MRKH.  I think it's a good read.  Check it out! You can find it on amazon here. 

MRKH meeting

I've never been one to make MRKH a major focus of my life, but no matter how hard I try to imagine  that it's not a big deal, it is. I'm different. I've been different my whole life. I have felt like a freak, embarrassed,  ashamed, confused, I have questioned "why me", and I have felt alone. Even knowing that there are other woman out there like me, it didn't seem to matter.

Today that changed. For the first time I met 2 beautiful ladies that also have MRKH, and for the first time in my life, I felt like someone understands me.

We chatted about everything; family, sex, marriage, relationships, food, wine, jobs... What I appreciated most about our get together is that we are all in different places in our lives.  One is single and trying out the dating thing, one had been married for 20 years, and me...married for four years trying to figure the kid thing out.

I don't think you can truly understand how important it is to meet someone like you unless you are a little different. I'll be the first to admit I didn't see the importance in it, until today. It's a strange feeling...feeling like no one understands what you go through, and then all the sudden two people do.

Today was a day I will never forget. It made me feel normalish...it made me feel not alone...and it was awesome.

Enough sappy stuff! This post sucks! I don't think I laughed once writing it.

3 years blogging

Just realized it's been exactly 3 years today since I wrote my first blog post about MRKH. I don't do it as often as I would like, but it is pretty therapeutic. Thank you everyone for your love and support through this process.

Friends are People too

Yup, we are at that age. People are getting pregnant on purpose...I'm cool with that, as long as you don't start to suck as a friend.

-Still make time to hang out with your friends who don't have kids.
-Every once and a while, leave your kid with a parent, babysitter, grandparent and have a fun night out.
-Don't tell me I don't understand because I don't have kids (even if it's true).
- Let me compare my dog to your kid...it's fun 😊


That's all

Embarrassing Bodies

There is a show in the UK called Embarrassing Bodies, last night they did a show on MRKH. Check it out here: