Sunday, April 20, 2014

A little Easter inspiration

I don't talk much about religion, but I think about it often. Yesterday, I was inspired by something I read, and wanted to write my own version of  what I think God meant when he gave me MRKH.  So, here it is...

What do I think God meant when he gave me MRKH?

I think he meant for me to meet jason. I think he meant for us to become best friends, love each other like no one else can, have fun together, challenge each other, become stronger together and solve problems together. He wanted me to have a partner that I can cry to when I am having a bad day, and who is willing to do whatever it takes to make me happy. Even with the challenges of not being able to have a child the "traditional" way I still have a partner who I want to go through this with, because as much as MRKH sucks, I have someone who can somehow turn this situation into a good time.

Do I think God meant for me not to have children? No, I do not believe that is my destiny.  I think he wants me to take the road less traveled.  I believe he gave me MRKH to become more compassionate, develop inner courage, and use my humor to deal with difficult situations.  He wants me to enjoy the journey of life and not worry about the destination. He wants me to believe that this is not a bump in the road, but an opportunity to help children who I may have never thought of helping, and to share my story with others who might be dealing with something similar. He has given me opportunities. Like it or not, I believe I am a better person for this.

If I'm being honest, I think I'm special. I think God gave me MRKH to  make me realize how precious life can be.  He wanted me to stay humble, and appreciate the little things in life.  He is making me work for this, but when I finally have a child to hold it will be a feeling that only a few will understand. That baby, and everyone around me will know that we really wanted that child.

Of course I would not wish MRKH on anyone,  but I do believe it was given to me for a reason.  I am sure there are so many reasons that I haven't even figured out yet, but I am satisfied with my list of reasons so far.

Saturday, April 19, 2014

I really need to do this more

I would like to blog more, but I struggle with how much to share about this process... Any thoughts?  When is it TMI? When do I keep these things private?