Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Awesome Parents

I really don't know what I did in my previous life to deserve such awesome and supportive parents. 

 I feel extremely lucky that not only my parents, but Jason's as well, are the greatest.  We have  eight parent figures in our lives that seriously are amazing! Each one is individually unique, and they each have had a special impact on us.  So from now on, when I get asked "Jen, why are you so awesome?" I'm going to say "it's my parents fault". 

But seriously, someday when jason and I have kids, they will be so lucky to have these eight grandparents who will love them so much! Our kids will be the luckiest, just like us! 

P.S. A bit sappy, I know. I am just feeling grateful! 

Monday, January 5, 2015

Feeling happy and sad

I've known I am different for exactly half of my life now, but for most of that time I didn't feel that different. My life was pretty much the same as everyone else I grew up around. I played sports, had loving supportive parents, traveled, went to college, went to bars, enjoyed camping in the summer...you get the point. My whole life I have been surrounded my great friends who like to do the same things as me. And now, all of that seems like it's changing right before my eyes...

It's a weird feeling, being so happy and sad at the same time, it is difficult to explain. I think it's just that I no longer feel like I live a "normal" life. I am 32, married WITHOUT kids. I am the weird one now.  It's easy to deal with when a majority of your friends are childless, but now I have become one of the only ones without kids and am slowly realizing how different I really am and it can be difficult at times.

Deep down, I have always known this would happen. It's a natural part of life. It's strange for me because when I find out people are pregnant my initial reaction is very conflicted. Of course I am extremely happy, but I am also selfishly sad for me. It's a constant reminder that I am different.  Selfishly, when I hear the words " I'm pregnant" I think of all the things that could possibly change with our friendship. And although I know that it's a part of life, and change is inevitable, I know it's going to be hard. I cherish the memories of traveling, camping, bar hopping, and living a child free life with my friends. And although we may never do those things together again, I know we will create new memories and different experiences that I will treasure forever. 

Friday, January 2, 2015


I am not much of a reader...in fact, I have read a total of 5 books my whole life. I don't necessarily have anything against books, but they sort of put me to sleep. 

I recently heard about a book called Rokitansky ( it's the "R" in MRKH).  I had to read it.  MRKH is not very well known, and the fact that someone wrote a book about it definitely intrigued me.  I knew when I bought it that it was a fiction book, which I was a bit skeptical about because IF I am going to read I like true stories.  But I bought it anyway...

For me, the book started out a little slow. I probably would have given up on it after the first 5 chapters, but I convinced myself to finish, and I am SO glad I did! Once I got about 1/4 way through the book, it was hard to put down. I could relate to several parts of the book, and the end of it had me in tears. Side note: I am not much of a cryer.  This book touched on so many of my feelings and made me think of things I hadn't thought of before. I don't want to give too much away because you should read it!! 

I have since talked my husband into reading it, which is he currently doing, and another friend of mine just finished it.  She loved it also, and does not have MRKH.  I think it's a good read.  Check it out! You can find it on amazon here.