Wednesday, November 7, 2012

The Old Days

Some of you know that I am currently a college student, and have been for about 13 years. No, I'm not a Dr...I just really love going to different colleges and taking lots of pointless classes. But all of that is almost coming to an end. I will officially be done at the beginning of March!  YIPPY!  Anyway, the reason I mention this is because I have been taking a lot of woman's history / marriage / family classes and part of me finds them to be very sad.  I have read, ok more like skimmed several books that talk about woman in the old days and their roles in their family's.  Basically, their role was to be a baby maker, and take care of the family.  If they couldn't have children, then their husbands would divorce them, and no one would ever marry them again.  I just think that is so sad.  And even today in my MRKH support and awareness group on facebook, there are woman from all over the world on there.  One woman from another country said her family has basically disowned her because they feel she is useless.

What if I was born in the old day's? I cannot imagine my life like that. Those woman must have felt so alone. Anyway, I am glad I was born when I was.  And I hope that I can make other woman who maybe feel this way now, know that there is hope for them, and that they are not alone.

I did a google search for famous woman that have is what I came up with...Interesting :)

  • Eva Braun - Adolf Hitler's longtime companion!  Awesome, I am so glad we have something in common...also, we are both German. Although, this cannot be confirmed many believe that she had MRKH.
  • Amalia of Oldenburg  I have no idea who she is, but apparently she is famous and had MRKH 
And that concludes the list...Although someday, you might be able to add Jen Irwin to that list :) 

I Guess Not Everyday Can Be Good

Well, I'm just going to say it...I cant always have a positive attitude.  This week is definitely one of those weeks.  I have just been having a frustrating time with Dr. stuff.  It seems like I cannot really get any answers.  So I guess all of this frustrating Dr stuff is partially my fault. Besides this last week, I haven't really seen a Dr about my MRKH condition since I was 16 or 17 years old.  And even though I went back to the same Dr, they  don't keep records past 10 years. 

Jason and I were talking a few weeks ago and we decided we would maybe like to look into the possibility of having someone else carry our child (meaning, they would still use my eggs and Jason's "stuff" to put into another woman's uterus), before we explore the adoption process. So, I made an appointment with the Dr to explore this option.  The Dr. was great.  He spent an hour and a half talking to us about what our options would be and answering questions that we had (I could not believe he spent this much time with us).  I had some blood work done that day to start testing certain hormones and other stuff I don't understand.    They called me back later that day and told me I needed to come in for MORE blood work the next Monday.  So I did.  They took 15 tubes of blood for more testing. I was pretty sure I was going to die. The most annoying thing on this visit was the nurse.  When I first sat down to get my blood taken she asked if I was on my period.  I politely said "No, I dont have a period."  Then she asked "When was the last time you had your period.?"  And again I said "Never, I dont have a period."  Then, not even 5 minutes later she asked me again "When was the last time you had your period?"  This time I answered the question very annoyed "I. DO. NOT. HAVE. A. PERIOD!"  Then she just stared at me...but I think she got the point.

After my blood work, I had an ultrasound done to see if they could see what kind of condition my ovaries are in.  They did the typically ultrasound (the kind you have when you are having a baby), and then the did the vaginal ultrasound...That was super fun!  They stuck this big dildo looking thing up my vagina (sorry, I don't know how else to put it). The results were inconclusive, so now I am having an MRI.  I have not scheduled it yet because when I called to make the appointment, the scheduler said "I have never seen this kind of MRI test come across our desk before, so I will have to call you back when I find out what to do..." Still waiting.

Ok, enough bitching for now. I do have to say that I have an amazing husband who has been with me though all of this.  He has come to every appointment. He has wiped my tears, hugged me tight, and made me laugh. Even without a uterus, I think I am the luckiest girl in the world!