I Guess Not Everyday Can Be Good

Well, I'm just going to say it...I cant always have a positive attitude.  This week is definitely one of those weeks.  I have just been having a frustrating time with Dr. stuff.  It seems like I cannot really get any answers.  So I guess all of this frustrating Dr stuff is partially my fault. Besides this last week, I haven't really seen a Dr about my MRKH condition since I was 16 or 17 years old.  And even though I went back to the same Dr, they  don't keep records past 10 years. 

Jason and I were talking a few weeks ago and we decided we would maybe like to look into the possibility of having someone else carry our child (meaning, they would still use my eggs and Jason's "stuff" to put into another woman's uterus), before we explore the adoption process. So, I made an appointment with the Dr to explore this option.  The Dr. was great.  He spent an hour and a half talking to us about what our options would be and answering questions that we had (I could not believe he spent this much time with us).  I had some blood work done that day to start testing certain hormones and other stuff I don't understand.    They called me back later that day and told me I needed to come in for MORE blood work the next Monday.  So I did.  They took 15 tubes of blood for more testing. I was pretty sure I was going to die. The most annoying thing on this visit was the nurse.  When I first sat down to get my blood taken she asked if I was on my period.  I politely said "No, I dont have a period."  Then she asked "When was the last time you had your period.?"  And again I said "Never, I dont have a period."  Then, not even 5 minutes later she asked me again "When was the last time you had your period?"  This time I answered the question very annoyed "I. DO. NOT. HAVE. A. PERIOD!"  Then she just stared at me...but I think she got the point.

After my blood work, I had an ultrasound done to see if they could see what kind of condition my ovaries are in.  They did the typically ultrasound (the kind you have when you are having a baby), and then the did the vaginal ultrasound...That was super fun!  They stuck this big dildo looking thing up my vagina (sorry, I don't know how else to put it). The results were inconclusive, so now I am having an MRI.  I have not scheduled it yet because when I called to make the appointment, the scheduler said "I have never seen this kind of MRI test come across our desk before, so I will have to call you back when I find out what to do..." Still waiting.

Ok, enough bitching for now. I do have to say that I have an amazing husband who has been with me though all of this.  He has come to every appointment. He has wiped my tears, hugged me tight, and made me laugh. Even without a uterus, I think I am the luckiest girl in the world!